lub ish priceless - lub ish fereva //

when Countdown = Mahjong

I was hoping Alfred could join me to Cherie's place.
At least for our lunch gathering, where everyone was there.
Yes, Ling's new bf and Cherie's Nikolas.
There was 2 single guys, Alex & Si Wei (our buddies).
Knowingly that Im attached but came to her place single,
they were puzzled and started to question like aunties.

"Where's Alfred? I thought he will accompany you."

Have you heard of rubbing salt on the wound?
It's already heartbreaking and I know it's somehow
a GOOD CHOICE he didn't come.
He mingles well but I doubt he likes my circle of friends.

I was all high and excited and then quieten down.
Anyone could possibly sense some wrong in me.
I drown myself in a world of MAHJONG!

Nikolas and Siwei taught Ling & me mahjong.
We were addicted and played for hours.
I didnt know it can be so fun and time just passed us by.
By checking out my hp, I hope Alfred will msg me.
He did afterall, what I really miss was his presence.

Countdown = Mahjong. I continue playing to win. We called
pizza delivery and can't stop mahjonging. LOL*
Cherie's family is MAHJONG PRO. gosh. even her bro-in-law.
I was impressed at their skills and speed. SHARP!

It's near 11pm, the gang decided to go for a movie.
A lonely me wanted to go home, which I did in the end.
On my way in the train, Alfred called me. I was thrilled.
We didnt' countdown on the phone. Sounds alil silly
but able to hear his voice was enough
to cover my loneliness home tonight.

p.s. ALFRED, hope you love me with your heart!

jamie was bouncin' @ 11:54 PM

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Saturday, December 24, 2005

our FIRST x'mas eve '05

Thinking about Christmas is here when the clock strikes 12.
It isnt a happy event actually.
It feels like any other day in town,
only that the town will be flooded with human beings.

Before that day actually comes, people head down to town
for (what they call that?) the christmas eve celebration.
I was there to spend my first x'mas eve with
my ever-so-sweet darling ALFRED! (not exactly ever-so-sweet)
Nevertheless, I'm glad I get to see him during the weekend.
We haven't seen each other for some time.

MISS HIM TO THE MAX.

I met Sandra outside Takashimaya. You know one of the
illegal hawking "team player". They do it for fun and
big bucks. Not exactly, but somewhere there.
Can I tell? okok. MOMO also one of them.
That's the reason why I was there.

Alright. At one point, when stitchie head held my hand,
I felt that he wasn't there. All these days of excitement
just to take a look at him, feel his love,
it turned out to be empty. Was I over reacting?

Few hours later, I left him and went shopping alone.
I regretted wearing mini skirts and I witnessed
girls being attacked with sprays. They were molested!
I feel sorry for them but nothing I can do.
For as long, I wasn't the victim or esle
those foreign workers will get it from me.

I'm NO PUSHOVER!

BUT there's one HUNK held my hand.
*yucks. so what he's a hunk.
I only care about stitchie head HOLDING my hands,
NOT HIS. *disgusting.

*Sigh* Walking through the crowds, met my good old UNITIANs.
still alive & looking good for the event. Clubbing? Maybe.

At the end of the day, it wasn't so bad...
WHEN STITCHIE HEAD said he's worried for me.
He saw girls being... blah blah... and he's WORRIED for me.

Im overwhelmed!!! Gosh* Love him to bits.

jamie was bouncin' @ 11:23 PM

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Thursday, December 22, 2005

im a whiner but i was upset.

Few days ago, an emotional me was telling Stitchie
how depressed and upset I was.
From a drop of tear to a bucket of tears.
Alright, that was exaggerating.
It all begin when our relationship seem to have faded.

I wonder if I was the problem or was it him.
Did I give him enough love? Was he alr an insecure person?
Thought after thought flooding into my head.
I started to panick and I cried.

WHAT SHOULD I DO? WHAT WENT WRONG? WHY?

It's the first time I care about a guy so much.
I never have as many dates or relationship than him.
Even my puppy loves are not comparable. It's nothing you see.
I really cherish him and fell in love with his tender love.

Sometimes, I feel that he care about me... but...
Love is meant to be true. Is this true love?
Maybe it's a wishful thinking of me, hoping something
out from this "love" i called.

I WANT YOU FOREVER. you said that before.
I doubt the promise will be kept.

If its meant to be... it will be.

jamie was bouncin' @ 11:10 PM

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Friday, December 16, 2005

Children Christmas Party

MY FAV ; MEI MEI

I had my last term test today.
Instead of partying somewhere in town with my classmates,
we stayed back in school to watch "THE LAST SAMURAI".
Personally, I love that movie.

At 4pm, my gang got to go to Bukit Timah CC to help out
with Children Christmas Party. It's so exciting.
We never invovle in such an event and it's our CIP
The decorations were simple yet heartwarming.
I was assigned to be facilitator.

One by one, the kids came in and they are form my group.
They aint an easy bunch of people. Temptation. Persuasion.
Finally, we managed to mingle with them.
(They're devil in disguise; i wonder how stitchie will handle them)

On the other hand, I didn't realize the kids are military trained!
Who esle but their kindergarden teacher is the COMMANDER!
*whistles. I had so much fun and I adore a lil girl "mei mei"
so kawaii nei. lol.
I spent the whole night playing and chasing after them.
It's sucha tiring chore and I wonder if I'm up to it again.

p.s. Lemme show you the photos we took. =))

p.p.s we didnt get to eat ROTI PRATA @ Bukit Timah!!!

jamie was bouncin' @ 12:52 PM

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Saturday, December 10, 2005

funny feelings

There's a funny feeling inside me which I can't describe.
I guessed something was missing and I really don't know what to do.
1 more week before the commence of term tests.

No doubt, I'm a last minute person when comes to studying.
What to do? I'll just stressed up or pretend I am even I am not.
Confused? Don't be ok. Nothing complicated here.
Plus, I'm not an attention seeker. *peace out*

Well, I guessed the term tests results will turn up to be as usual.
I mean, above/average grades you know.
Nothing to be proud of but at least I passed.
Don't ask me how I did that.
It just happened.

PMS is seriously a pain in the ass. It's giving me lot of mental stress.
I became more emotional that I cried alot for no reason.
Is there anything bothering me, I really don't know.
I don't like to think too much either. It's unnecessary.
Somehow, I guessed Stitchie head suffered in silence.

A confession from me; I'm WEAK but I'm not a LOSER.
Don't ever call me a LOSER.

"It takes one to know the other." - Fitri u rox.

p.s. gonna work hard for my test now... *jiayou jamie.

jamie was bouncin' @ 10:14 PM

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Monday, December 05, 2005