When goodbye doesnt come easy...

Everyone will have their first time on everything.
Yesterday was my first official break-up.
It's official because he's my REAL bf and not any puppy lover.
My heart is aching even now... my tears has dried up...
but my mind is still about him.

It will be difficult to remain as CLOSE FRIEND.
Maybe, things will become normal if we keep a distance.
I promised to call him that day and I didnt until much later.
I was trying to face with the pain.
How am I supposed to talk to him as if nothing has happened?

With my puffy eyes, anyone could possibly guess I cried alot.
The procedure of breaking up wasn't nice at all actually.
All my emotions... his words... our thoughts surrounded me.
I was afraid and I knew few months later or even a year later...
it's impossible to be together. Our feelings might have faded.

We didnt tell the BAOs directly. WHY did I promise to help out
AKE selection before we broke up?
How am I supposed to face him? We behaved weirdly, claimed the BAOs.